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Noxsoma Life Camp 2.0's avatar

So, you have left “regret” behind? Or does it still weigh on you? We notice you write from the perspective of the “observed’. What do you observe? What do you find beautiful? Has your perspective changed? We recognize your vibe. (There’s a word for that.)

Melanin is the default condition of the planet. But as you wrote, it’s a topic for another day. Enjoyed your post. Cheers.

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Sweet Chili Truths's avatar

Thank you for such a thought provoking question.

Is it possible to leave regret completely behind? I want to say yes because I feel like I have, at least for what I have experienced so far. The most my past has impacted me lately is by invoking this feeling of overwhelm at times since it has created a huge to-do list for me, but I see the value in it. I don’t wish to go back and change anything.

Having said that, I want to add that it all started from a feeling of regret. It was only after I processed my feelings that I was able to accept and honor my past. It also helped to know that I gave my best in every situation.

I observe myself. I observe my thoughts, my actions, my feelings. I want to understand who I am and why I do what I do. And if I discover something that is coming from pain and fear then I like to sit with it in hopes of resolving it. I feel their burden on my body and I dream of shedding this weight.

I observe others - why they are the way they are. I am curious about their experiences, their perspectives, their struggles and their strengths. In doing so, I think I am looking for harmony.

I find vulnerability beautiful. When people have the courage to shed their masks and bare their souls for the world to see, because it is more important to them to show up as they are than to fit-in.

I also have deep respect for people who are willing to sacrifice everything they hold dear in life to take a stand for others.

My perspective on strength, intelligence and beauty has changed significantly and it’s not possible for me to share it all here. Maybe in a future post.

I’m glad you enjoyed the post. Thank you for reading!

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Noxsoma Life Camp 2.0's avatar

It sounds like you’re on a very interesting path. It’s familiar. We (The Trinity) have passed this way before. We reflect on the humans “aspects of Universe” we see in the word and observe them differently than we did years ago.

“Regret” as a word and a concept intrigues Mind. Meeting an Alpha female at a group dinner, her first question was ‘What is your biggest regret?” I couldn’t think of any. It was earlier on our current path and I (what I call “Igo”) had just begun to own our decisions. Another long story.

You are very much the writer, but you had me at “dreamer.”

Good vibes. Good strength.

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Sweet Chili Truths's avatar

Thank you, I’m glad my writings resonated with you. Just curious, when you said “an Alpha female”, is it something that they identified themselves as, or do you have a personal definition for the term?

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Noxsoma Life Camp 2.0's avatar

She was one of two ladies at the table who were dominating the environment. Kind of “holding court” If you know what I mean. I don’t really believe in “alphas.” I just use the term as a descriptor, and being a wise guy. Turns out this woman became a HS principal. Ten years later we recounted our first meeting. She did not disagree with the description. So the answer, to both questions is, “Yes.” B-)

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